So I avoided the first drop off at day care, but I will be doing it tomorrow. It's hard to tell how I will react at drop off time. With my previous 2, I was perfectly fine until I got back to my car, then it was uncontrollable waterworks. I know it is silly. They both had perfectly wonderful caregivers, but I still cried anyway. I think no matter how wonderful your child's caregivers are, it's just damn hard to leave your little baby with strangers. I know she will be fine, it's just something I have to go through. This time, though, I have to walk next door to my office. I don't think many people will be in, so hopefully they won't notice the tear-streaked makeup lines on my face.
What I am looking forward to when I go back to work:
- The work. It's challenging, and I like it
- The sense of accomplishment that comes with the work
- A paycheck. It's been a while and we certainly need the money
- Social and professional interaction with adults
- A little 'me' time (my office has a nice cafeteria and gym)
- The commute (A 13 mile drive takes me 45 minutes each way. The traffic is absolutely ridiculous)
- Dressing up (my pre-pregnancy work clothes are either too big or too small, and I've been in denial about going back so I haven't bought anything new)
- Sitting at a desk all day (I wish I could work from home from at least some of the time, but I can't - that is a sore topic among my peers and I and worth another post)
- Day care costs - $208/week for #3, and $130/week total for after care for Diva and Daredevil - ouch
1 comment:
It's not silly at all to cry. I was a wreck--some days I still am. But it helped when everyone told me it would get easier so I hope that helps you too. Good luck!
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